CEDAR CREEK SERIES

JAX <18+>

I wanted to grab her and throw her back in my bed and never let her leave. I wasn’t kidding when I said she would be mine once she gave me a taste of perfection. My ego was bruised that she ran out like every other girl that was in my bed but this would be the first time it bothered me. I never had anyone feel so good around my dick before. I didn’t want to let that go. I may have tried to fight it but once I gave in I was dead serious that she was mine and I was sure as fuck hers. I couldn’t be with anyone else after I’d had her in my bed. My pillows still smelled like her and I groaned with frustration that she left.

I needed to go talk to someone that wouldn’t judge me and wouldn’t spread my business all over town. After my run and shower I pulled into my dad’s work not really wanting to have this conversation but my stomach was in knots and I needed advice. 

“How’s my favorite son?” My dad came out of his office with a big smile on his face and gave me the biggest hug.

“Not too bad, wanna grab some lunch?” My dad managed a bank and was usually free to do whatever he wanted. Today I needed some advice and I just hoped he wouldn’t judge me too much.

“Of course! Let’s go to the Chinese place down the road.” I followed him to his car and his stereo was blasting some classic country tunes. 

“I did something stupid.” I blurted after we had ordered. I couldn’t take the small talk anymore.

“Is anyone pregnant?” he said, raising an eyebrow at me.

“No. Nothing like that. You know Dylan?” I asked, waiting for the judgment.

“Well of course I know Dylan. She’s home now right? How is she?”

“Yeah yeah she’s good, dad. Look, I took her home last night.” I had my hands on my head and I felt like I was going to burst. My parents knew I was a whore and I didn’t care about niceties. I was going to throw up and I didn’t know if it was my guilt about my brother or that I actually liked this girl and maybe she didn’t like me in the same way. 

“Jackson?” My dad raised another eyebrow and waited for me to explain.

“I don’t know dad, she’s just. She’s different okay and she’s so beautiful but it’s not just sex. I like her… And I said no the first time but then she made it impossible to say no and now I just can’t stop thinking about her. But like she left like any other girl and I don’t know if that’s all she wanted but it is not all I wanted. I wanted her to stay forever. I never asked a girl to stay longer and she said no to me. And I can’t stop thinking about her but the guilt might make me throw up.” I was rambling but once the words started they wouldn’t stop.

“Do you think she said no because you did previously?” I hadn’t thought of that, didn’t she take me seriously when I said she was mine.

“Maybe but I told her she was mine.” I said genuinely confused.

“Oh good, you just told her she was yours?” he said sarcastically at my idiotic statement. “You like her?”

“Yeah like a fucking lot. I’ve never felt like this,” I had “girlfriends” but I quickly realized I didn’t do girlfriends and just hooked up with girls when I wanted.

“What do you like about her?” What didn’t I like about her?

“She’s real, and she’s funny and she doesn’t deal with bullshit. She’s so beautiful but it’s more than that. It’s like her personality and smile gives me this high. She’s like a ball of pure fire and when she walks into a room I just- I don’t know I feel stupid.” I was blushing and I dug into my food just to avoid eye contact. I was pathetic.

“Wow. I’ve never heard you have a crush before. How do you know it’s not a fantasy?” Calling her a fantasy made me tense.

“Dad. She’s not a fantasy, if she was a fantasy I would be over her already, right? Like I fucked her so the fantasy would be over?”

“I didn’t think you even knew Dylan that well.” He looked me in the eye and I couldn’t tell what he was thinking.

“I’ve liked her basically my whole life but so did Tommy, and then she moved and it’s not like I was pining this whole time but fuck, I melted the second I saw her in person the other night. I said no to her twice but come on, a guy can only stay away from perfection for so long.”

“Are you going to see her again?” 

“Well like I said I don’t think she likes me. And what about Tom? He won’t forgive me. But Dad it can’t just be one night with her. Or at least not for me.” I didn’t know what I wanted but I wanted more, I needed more.

“Now you know I love Tommy but if you’d cared more about his feelings than your own then you wouldn’t have slept with Dylan. She isn’t some trophy to win, she’ll make her own decision. Jax I have never judged your dating life. But if you treat her like every other girl and just sleep with her without putting in some effort you’re going to regret it. And she’s going to leave and act like every other girl. If you have feelings for her you need to take her out on a proper date. Grow the fuck up son.”

“Yeah maybe.” Fuck. That’s what Spencer said. 

“Call her Jackson. And soon, because I’ve known Dylan since she was knee high and she doesn’t wait around by the phone. She’s out enjoying life, you’d better scoop her up.” We finsished our lunch and I felt better but I was still confused what to do next.

Call her. Don’t call her. Text her. No, call her. Fuck. I needed to decide what the fuck to do to get this girl out of my head. I decided to run down to the beach with Sammy. I’d thought a lot about what my dad had said but I didn’t know how to date.  I’d known Dylan my whole god damn life and she’d never taken up this much space in my head before. I always thought she was cool, and attractive but there were a lot of cool, attractive girls out there. I liked to look out for her and I wasn’t blind I watched how hot she got as she grew up. I was lost in thought when all of a sudden Sammy took off.

“Sam!” I ran after him and came around the corner to him whining up at Dylan. Who was in the tiniest shorts I’d ever seen and a sparkly red bikini top. She bent down and was letting Sammy kiss her face as she gave him loves.

“Hey stranger.” She said looking up at me biting her bottom lip. How badly did I want to bite that bottom lip? “Hi Sammy!” 

“He likes you.” I noted trying to keep my cool.

“More than his dad apparently.” she teased before standing up.

“That’s not fair.” I said more seriously than I meant to. I looked her up and down causing her to blush. “I’m not the one who left yesterday.”

I wanted so much more with her and she thought I wanted one night. I couldn’t think of anything else or anyone else. I wanted her in whatever way I could have her. Hell, I just wanted to talk to her every day and hear her laugh.

“I know but you said-” I wrapped my arms around her waist and gave her a deep kiss.

“I said you were mine and I meant it,” she looked at me like I was a crazy person and took a step back touching her lips but I didn’t let her hand go.

“Jax! What’s up?” Greer interrupted but I couldn’t take my eyes off Dylan who was now flustered and not looking at me. She was walking up with Maddie and a girl I didn’t know. 

“Hey guys, what’s going on?” I smirked at Dylan and squeezed her hand. All of her friends looking at our hands interlocked and I just grinned.

“Just trying to get some sun on this girl! You’d think livin on the beach she would have SOME color but look how ghostly white she is!” Maddie said laughing at Dylan.

“I don’t know Mads. I think her body is mighty fine the way it is.” I winked at Dylan stroking her cheek and caught her blushing again. “You guys coming out later?” I asked the group but didn’t take my eyes away from Dylan. I couldn’t tell if she was turned on or killing me with her eyes for embarssing her in front of her friends who clearly didn’t know about last night.

“I’m pretty sure the normal group will see you tonight.” Maddie said, smiling up at Dylan.

“That’ll be good. Will I see you Dylan?” I looked into her eyes and I could tell she was trying to read me.

“Probably,” she shrugged.

“Good.” I bent down and kissed her on the cheek causing her to blush even more. “I better not see anyone touching what’s mine.” I whispered in my ear before running past them.

Dylan was speechless. She could think we were one and done but she was wrong. She tortured me to get me to say yes, and I would torture her if she said no now. I headed back to my apartment knowing I had won that exchange. She was not going to bother me, she was Dylan. I was getting to her more than she was getting to me and it was not going to be weird.  I could take my Dad’s advice and ask her out and see how things went.